wanna lost everything

wanna be a machine.

To make my dreams come true. To be where I wanna be.

I have to be patient to make it. But it's hard .

so I wanna lost all my feelings to be a machine.

A machine which does not have any feelings to do sth.

That is all I want NOW !

Have run too much w/o looking back.

I had thouhgt i have been thinking about my self , known what i have to do, and had sth to stisfy "a dream" .

It is not,however, it was wrong.
I have been believe that I am on my way, doing what I want to do and catching what I am doing.

Because of above, I did not realize that I have run too much to go back where I want to be.
Yeah, you can say that I am doing what I have wanted. And I have reached where I wanted to be.

Right ! you are right. I can't deny what you siad. well..., actually I am . yeah.

You know? People chage their mind in other words DREAM. well.. Everybody can change their mind w/o caring sth..

What i want to state is just... let me go.... please...

a year passed

A year passed, after coming back to J.
Yeah.. was so fast like my fuck. oops! I sould not have said that.
It is like choking myself.

Any way, I was chatting with my friend , who is in Boston, just before second.
Then I have been heard greate NEWS that she has got baby ! that made me super excited as if I got one too.

I'll write about my friends in this blog this coming days. Yes they are all awesome.

quick back 2005

Thank 2005 ! You gave me lots of things! Gave me a job. well, the job is so far so good except money things...! So, I really appreciate about that.

BUT! You SUX ! You have taken away my specials from me. It was not his time. It was too early to go...Why did not you take others ? Say something ! Tell me why he had to go to another place. I wanted to give him back my appreciations . I wanted to go snowbordig with him. I wanted more more....

Any way, You have taken my girl friend too. Ok. I do not say much about that. I .. whatever.
Let me tell sth,last. I had been makig lots of effort to be here today. Because wanted to make you happy , wanted you see your smile and to be said good job. Just only for you. But you are not here, any more. Sorry honey. I am a liar.

I will never look back. Just go ahead.

Special Thanks: T.Takezawa, C,Miyata.

Finally..

I got own blog here !!!

These days I got lots of changes in my life.
First, I've just moved in to Tokyo where all prices are expensive.
New place is so far so good. I can see a Big Wheel, lighting up every night, from balcony .
Take 40 minutes train trip to my office every day is better than before.
Living alone is awesome!! Love lonly life !!!